So it's now been 11 months. Just another month until we reach 1 year. We've got so much going on in the next few weeks, with the babies coming. We are planning a small get together for our local friends and family on July 16 at 7pm (more info to follow on Facebook). All are welcome, but nobody is expected to be there. We will not be hurt if it is not well attended. Whether you are local or not, we would like you to help us "remember" Stephanie we've created a Facebook event https://www.facebook.com/events/506634969389816/.
We continue to miss her terribly, though we are comforted in knowing where she is. Our coming twins are a blessing, but they will never replace Stephanie.
Speaking of the twins. I am currently 35 weeks and 2 days. Being pregnant after a full term loss, is scary to say the least. Yes, we are trusting in God. He is in control. But the thing that is hard, is He was in control when Stephanie died too. He was not on vacation, He did not fall asleep. That is where the struggle lies. We know that should something terrible happen, He will be right there with us, just as He always has been, but being in this vulnerable position, where we don't know what will happen, knowing that He could choose to call Jason and/or Julianna home too, is sometimes overwhelming. Many have said, "Oh, I don't think God would make you go through that again". But there is no guarantee. Have you read the story of Job? There are many people who have lost many children. Please don't think that I am constantly thinking the negative, I don't entertain those thoughts for long and replace them with the truths in Scripture. I write this because as those who read it go through a pregnancy after a loss they will see, if these thoughts and concerns are present, they are not alone in thinking it. I'm guessing it is quite normal, in fact. That said, we are extremely excited about these babies coming into our lives. We are hoping, praying and trusting that they are born alive and healthy. I can't wait to introduce them to you!
